Friday, October 3, 2014

Walking into Sunset, Con't.


 Patty’s car was wedged tight in the last space she could find, a long block from the restaurant, and she wondered how on earth she’d get out again when the night was over. A sharp tap on the window drew her out of her reverie: it was David, bending towards her, as handsome as a man had ever been, holding an umbrella as he waited for her to unlock the door of her little coupe. She smiled and did so, and he opened the door for her, helping her out with a gentle arm under her elbow, and making sure she was sheltered, at his own expense.

 “Thanks,” she said. “Well, still raining. I guess.” Brilliant conversation, Patty, keep going and this will be a very short night.

“I’m sorry our gorgeous walk at the lake didn’t come off. We’ll do it next weekend, even if it’s chilly. Maybe Saturday afternoon, if you’re free?”

He was already talking another date— not terrible to hear. It calmed her a little more.  

“I’d love it. But I have to admit something— I don’t like calamari. In fact, I don’t eat any seafood. Didn’t want to be a pain, though.”

 He adjusted the umbrella to cover them both perfectly, and started walking her towards the gargantuan gold and black doors of Olivio’s. “They also have the best Chicken with sage, artichokes, and Spaghetti Aglio E Olio you can imagine, I promise. There’ll be some incredible dish you’ll never forget— unless you don’t like Italian.” He looked at her, smiling deep, from his eyes, and Patty felt a little too charmed all at once— a gooey-good, scary feeling.

“Amo italiano; e` il cibo degli dei,” Patty purred in almost perfectly accented Italian.

David’s smile broadened, hearing her. “Sono d’accordo,” he replied, “It is food for divine beings, as
I’m sure our host would agree. I’ve known him 30 years, and he’s probably going
to ply us with so many antipasti we won’t have room for secondi, much less the
contorni his daughter will insist on providing."
 David’s prediction turned out to be true. Olivio, a slim and gracious but very stubborn man, absolutely refused to let them wait in the bar for their table, bringing them instead to his special tasting table in the kitchen, where he poured glass after glass of a deliciously tart and bitter cocktail for them and the several other people that had paid actually paid for the privilege of being spoiled by the owner-chef. The antipasti were a feast unto themselves— cold artichokes in spiced oil and hot ones cloaked lightly in the crispiest breading; buttery soft sliced meats, fruits stuffed with an herby cheese filling, peppers fresh and roasted, and sauteed tiny baby squid flecked with coarse salt and sprinkled with lemon--  that was before the pasta even arrived. Luckily, their private table was ready by then— Patty wasn’t sure she could manage even a single bite each of the several kinds of pasta Olivio was tossing together for his delighted guests in the kitchen.

 Their own booth was cozy, almost secluded, in a sort of pocket off to one side of the large fireplace that dominated the main room of the restaurant. Patty sat back against the deep fabric of the banquette and watched David scanning the menu.   

 “That was— an experience.” she said.

He looked up, eyes twinkling in the candlelight. “It was. It always is, with Olivio. He started as only a dishwasher here. Watched and learned, nagged his grandmother for cooking tips, begged his way into pasta prep, and just went from there.”

 “So it wasn’t always called Olivio’s?”  

“No. It wasn’t even a fine restaurant then, just a pasta and pizza place— one of those good old red sauce & chianti joints, with the checked tablecloths, you know? Tony’s Tomato Pie, I think it was called. My family used to come here then for birthday parties. But when Tony wanted to move to Florida and retire, he offered Olivio a great deal, and Olivio decided to make it over from the ground up. It’s good location, and he kept all the staff that wanted to stay— and most of the old customers, too.”

“That’s amazing! He is a fantastic cook.” She only hoped she’d make it through dinner while still retaining her ability to walk.

 “He is,” David said, but he must have read her mind, because he took her hand and squeezed it, adding “And I’ve found it’s wise, with Olivio's cooking, to practice the fine art of doggy-bagging. Otherwise I’d be wearing a suit at least three sizes bigger by now.”

 Patty relaxed her hand against his, enjoying the feel of it; he held on loosely, she noticed, but didn’t let go till their wine arrived.  


 It was a wonderful meal. The pasta came in a sauce both light and subtle, with accompanying vegetables Patty would have loved to get the recipe for. She and David chatted easily about jobs and cats, their long-gone college days, and the troubles of being a homeowner vs a renter, all the while drinking in each other’s presence as they sipped a superb Pinot Grigio. He made her laugh out loud at least a dozen times during a certain story about a boyhood attempt at pancake-making gone horribly wrong, and there was definitely a strong current flowing between them by the time they’d finished their main course.
 
 Olivio visited their table just once, to bring a palate cleansing sorbet, and  the perceptive chef must have sensed they had more than food on their minds, because he sent over only two desserts more than they’d ordered, along with small snifters of Frangelico to go with their espresso. When the extras worth taking were wrapped up for them, Patty was sure it was enough for several more meals. Olivio himself came to see them out, hugging them warmly, each in turn. “Make sure you bring her back soon, Davide,” he told her date seriously, “or you only get one pasta dish from now on.”  

David nodded without hesitation, Patty was happy to see. “We’ll be in before the month is up, if she agrees,” he promised, taking her hand. Finally they left, stashing the take-home bag in Patty’s car.


 

Thursday, October 2, 2014

Walking into Sunset

 She ironed the fancy tee she meant to wear to her date tonight-- the first in 30-odd years. Her suitor (calling him that in her mind helped keep a lid on the creeping panic) had suggested dinner and a walk on the pier, at sunset. Romantic, but not overly so, as they both knew there would be a good crowd of families and other couples doing the same, everybody savoring the last week or two of warm weather they were likely to get. Still a nice idea, and knowing where they'd eat meant she could pre-plan a decent meal that wouldn't be heavy on the garlic, the calories, or the more gas-inducing vegetables, which had all become something of a consideration after her 52nd birthday.

 Picturing it in her mind helped-- the kids running after the guy that sold helium balloons, the paired off teenagers pretending they were too cool to hold hands when they were dying to, really-- all of it against a backdrop of melting bronze and softly lapping waves. Patty could see it, now, and if she could see it she could handle it, however bad or good-- it was the unforeseen that often rattled her. Her afternoon was blocked out to avoid worry-- pressing her outfit, a cool bath, a quick home pedicure to show off with her new sandals, and then she would put on her makeup slowly, not in the usual rush. Her hair had been cut and colored at the salon yesterday, and didn't need more than a final flick of styling gel. She'd get there early and wait at the patio bar, sipping a glass of wine, calm and pretty-- a perfect plan.

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 The downpour began while she was in the tub. She cut herself shaving her legs, and cursed the rain, but maybe it would stop in time to dry up and leave her plan intact. Then an hour later, as she started to apply her foundation, the phone rang: it was David, calling about their evening. It was still raining while she answered.

"They say it's going to keep drizzling for hours, so I was thinking, maybe instead of me meeting you by the water, you could come downtown-- I know a fantastic Italian place, they have the best calamari you've ever tasted. We could window shop or go hear some music afterwards; what do you think?"

Patty was glad he couldn't see her grimace at the mention of calamari, but she wanted to be flexible, so she forced a cheery tone in reply, "Sounds wonderful. I'll just bring an umbrella."

 David chuckled, a throaty, sexy sound, "You won't need it. I've got one, and we can walk for a mile and a half under awnings here and never get wet."

 "Where do I meet you?" she asked, and he gave her the directions. It was just about as far downtown as you could go without leaving downtown, she realized as she hung up-- and she'd have to hurry to get there in time. Why hadn't she asked for an extra half hour? Plus, her sunset-on-the-pier outfit was too casual for dinner downtown. The sandals, too, would have been fine for a slow walk on sand or the wooden walkways near the lake, but they weren't going to be as comfortable for walking a mile and a half of pavement. Worrying over a new outfit made her hands shake, and she messed up her mascara, wasting more time.

"You're fussing yourself into a bad night," she told the woman in the mirror, and the woman smirked and gave her the finger. They both laughed, and she teased her hair into shape with her fingers, quickly. The overall effect was not bad-- it didn't look as if she had rushed. Her wide cheekbones looked reasonably fresh and dewy, and her lipstick was subtle, giving most of the attention to her eyes, deep set and brown flecked with a little gold. It was a face she could live with, provided the rain didn't make it all run and pool on her chin. She spritzed on a modest amount of Miss Dior and hurried to find a new outfit-- something that didn't need ironing.





 

Spaced Out

This is empty, to put distance between past posts and the NOW.

  Writing experiment to follow throughout Oktober.

Saturday, July 26, 2014

Bradbury's 52: Week One.

Week one has passed, but here finally is my effort, begun then, and finished as I can stand to make it tonight. The prompt for the week was-- Ghost, breakfast, school. I had an immediate idea, due to my personal past, and I used that idea for this story. It is in fact not pure fiction; rather a slightly fictionalized version of a true story, with no names changed to protect the innocent. As you read, I think you'll see that the innocent were hardly protected then, so why bother now? Enjoy.


Living your stories


My grandmother used to tell this story about a ghost. Well, a poltergeist, of sorts. The tale went that a man moved into his new house, spent a few days unpacking and ordering his cupboards, only to find a plate and cup on the table one morning, as if set for his breakfast. He washed them and put them in the dish rack, thinking maybe he had left them out after eating a morsel. Or maybe he pulled them from a box, set them down while overtired, and had not remembered to deal with them.

 

The next morning, there were the same plate and cup, set in place at the same seat at the table. The man began to worry for his memory, but he put the clean dishes back in the cupboard and forgot about the incident during his workday.

 

The next morning, the dishes were back. The man was furious now, sure someone was sneaking into his home to play this low prank— perhaps a schoolboy, or a mischievous neighbor. He rinsed the dishes quickly and set them in the rack to dry, then went to the stove to make his coffee— when behind him, he heard a light clinking sound. He turned just in time to see the cup settle back in place, the plate already set. They had moved of their own accord! The man ran out of the kitchen, and didn’t return till evening. The plate and cup were back in the dish rack, and he wondered if he’d imagined the movement. Still, he didn’t bother to put them away this time.

 

The next morning, the usual change had taken place, and the man was shaken, not knowing what to believe, or to do— it seemed certain he should do something, but what that should be, he couldn’t fathom. As he sat across from the empty cup and plate, drinking his coffee, there came a knock on the side door. It was an older lady from down the street, with a plate of freshly baked muffins for him. He asked her in, and they sat at the table with coffee, chatting a little.

 

The woman noticed the empty place set, and asked if his wife would be joining them soon, but the man explained that he was a bachelor.

 

“Just like the man who used to live here!” she exclaimed. “He always sat there in the mornings, having breakfast. He’d make coffee, and I’d bring him muffins too, sometimes.” She sighed, and motioned towards the empty plate, “I do miss him. With that place set it’s like he’s still with us.”

 

 The man tried to hide his dismay at the thought, while the old lady reminisced about her dead friend.

 

After she left, he thought about the situation for a while. The next morning, instead of putting the cup and plate away angrily, he poured some coffee in the cup, and buttered half a muffin to put on the plate. He drank his coffee and ate his own muffin, and chatted out loud, to himself, or whoever might be there. He talked about the nice weather that week, and his business prospects in this new area, and his sadness because his cat had run away the week before he moved. And after breakfast, he cleaned all of the dishes, and left.

 

 The next morning, the dishes were still in the dish rack. They never set themselves to a place again, either.

 

This, said my grandmother, was because the man had soothed the ghost’s spirit, a spirit that had perhaps passed away a little too suddenly, and had needed just one more normal day to accept it. Once the ghost’s former morning ritual had been played out, it could move on. This showed two things— that ghosts were real, and the value of a kind & understanding approach to people.

 

I accepted this story as true, or provisionally true, till well into my teens. After that, it moldered in the backrooms of my thought, sitting uneasily amidst my growing skepticism. But my Grandmother believed it, always. I am sure she never thought that she would end up as a ghost, herself. And from my godless and rational perspective, she couldn’t have— yet after her death, there were strange moments that I still cannot explain fully.

 

You see, she lived with us from the time I was about four, until she died. I was seventeen then, and no longer in high school, having quit at 15. Being between shit jobs, I tended to sleep late after staying up all night watching kung-fu movies and writing, or going out with my boyfriend. So I was the only one at home that morning, and when I woke, I noticed that Gram had not yet emerged from her room— odd for her, as she usually woke fairly early. She had been sick with some bronchial issue recently, and I began to worry. I knocked on her bedroom door, and it was too quiet.

 

 Before I could steel myself to intrude on her privacy (we never opened her room without her permission) my mother called from work— she was worried too, as Gram had felt worse again the night before, and now I had my orders to check on her. I knocked very loudly, and went in. Gram was lying in bed under the blankets, with a pinched, pained look on her face. I called to her, nothing. I tried to rouse her, but she was stiff, hard, cold. Marble cold. She was absolutely motionless. I knew she was gone. I had known before I opened the door. 

 

 My heart sank, as I did a double check to be sure. Then I called my mother back at work, told her to sit down, and broke the news to her that her mother was dead. That was the worst thing I have ever had to do. It was a sad day all round, made worse by the fact that Gram’s crumpled, stiff body did go through the bedroom door easily, and they had to break a leg to get her out. It was also clear from her face that she had had at least one big pain at the end, and that is where the weirdness began.

 

I have always been very impressionable— I couldn’t watch the bloodier horror movies as a teen, although I loved horror, fantasy & sci-fi from childhood. There were books I couldn’t read straight through, needing time to absorb strong images. And so it was that that first sight of Gram’s pained, dead face haunted me night after night in dreams, and in waking, for days. I couldn’t get it out of my head, until the day she was buried; that night, I dreamed of her, telling me she knew that I loved her, and it was okay. Then the awful vision left me, and never returned, in dream or waking.

 

 This part, I understand rationally. Some of my family had sort of blamed me for a day or two, that I hadn’t heard her call for help because I was lazy and sleeping, etc. It was lazy of me to sleep in, because I had broken the social contract of going to school and accepting further indoctrination and at least ten other things.  I had gone from a once favored baby to a part-time scapegoat. No matter that my room was at the other end of the house from hers, or that I might not have heard her from outside her door, if she called out. She had been dead for some time when I found her, perhaps while there were others in the house; but only my mother blamed herself, for not forcing Gram to go to a doctor (she always refused, and the one doctor that used to make house calls just for her had retired and moved away some years back).

 

My mind clearly needed to salve itself, to clear away the lingering guilt laid on me, and the guilt that rose naturally from within. My grandmother & I had had arguments recently— age versus youth, our usual misunderstanding of each other’s thoughts— nothing serious, but I was very glad that since the last sparring match, I had hugged her and told her I loved her.

 

“Do you?” she’d asked in her quavery voice. “I didn’t know that.”  Of course, I had assured her, my disagreeing with her didn’t mean I hated her. But she was old school, and loving children didn’t disagree. They didn’t argue with you and make you feel unneeded.

They didn’t quit the church, and school, and have boyfriends that weren’t of the same race, and so many other things I did do.  

 

When she told me in my dream of her, that she understood all of that finally, it was surely wish fulfillment on my part, the wish of having an adult understand my position clearly— and more important that it be my sweet Gram, who loved us wonderfully, if in an old-fashioned way. I never wanted her to feel unloved by me.

 

But the weirdness of that dream, and its instant effect of banishing the constant horrible memory of her death mask, was added to in pieces over time. First, when my younger sister also dreamed of Gram one night, a few months after the funeral. 

 

Carole was sick with a fever for two and a half days, and on the last night of it, she dreamed Gram sat at her bedside and slid a cool hand over her forehead, smiling at her. When she woke, her fever was gone. She told me about it, and we discussed our two dreams and what they might mean.

 

We began to notice that one of our cats had taken to sitting in an odd way, beneath the kitchen table, looking up at the empty chair where Gram used to sit. He did this only in the middle of the day, just around noon— the time when Gram would eat her luncheon sandwich and drink her single cup of hot tea, with two of her homemade cookies. It was hard not to think he was waiting for her, as if he had seen her recently at her routine, and was expecting a scrap of lunchmeat to get slipped down to him.

 

The scarier strange part came over a year later, and requires some explanation.

My grandmother lived through the Great Depression, and she retained a strong sense of frugality. Thus, when she was older and moving in and out of the tub was not so easy, she “saved water” by bathing only once a week. “I don’t get dirty walking around the house,” she’d say, and she was right, she never looked dirty or unkempt. Her hair was always done, her housedress neatly ironed, her face washed, her teeth white into her advanced 80’s, her hands spotless. She did, however, have a certain highly specific odor, due to some unaddressed women’s ailment that caused her a lasting problem of some kind of discharge. My own evil theory, which my family would hate me to mention, is that it wasn’t truly a women’s ailment, but a STD given her by my grandfather before he left her for good once their four kids were all grown. Just a theory, though.


That scent-- it wasn’t strong enough to reach across the room, but the day or two before her bath, you knew it. Yet she would not accept help getting in and out of the tub. Her views on nudity, sex, and exposure were a mix of puritan and extreme Catholic— you didn’t let your relatives see you undressed, period. Her bath remained a weekly event we all looked forward to, and were grateful for afterwards.

 

We had long since gotten used to this mild funk, as you do to any indoor smells with time. It had been two years since her death when Carole & I, sitting one afternoon at the same round wooden kitchen table, suddenly looked at each other in surprise as a wave of Gram smell washed over us. A faint breeze through the screen brought it stronger, rather than blowing it away. Instinctively, our heads turned to look through the bedroom door, that was open behind me— nothing but my mother’s bed and dresser, her having taken over Gram’s old room so that Carole and I could have separate bedrooms for the first time in our lives. Not a thing moved, the window was closed; the smell didn’t seem to be coming from in there, either, though where else but the room she mostly lived in?

 

We talked about it later, wondering if maybe some scent still clung to the carpet, (despite Mom’s use of scented rug freshener) or the bedframe and maybe we hadn’t noticed it before, and it got picked up by the moving air, etc. We agreed that it must be some natural occurrence like that. We kept agreeing every time it happened again, which added up to three more times.

 

Nowadays, I’m certain Carole thinks that Gram was somehow watching over us. I know this can’t be true. My Grandmother lived a long life, with some heavy events and bad stuff, but also lots of love, and her family always around her. It is sad to me that she spent the last twenty years of her life marking time, waiting to die, with her daily routine as her strongest anchor, instead of forging a more active, interesting second stage for herself; but I cannot believe she would, even if souls did exist, hang about to bother the living. If there was a heaven, she had friends there she’d want to see. She loved us and would never do anything to scare us, in life or death. She had wanted to rest, she wanted to be at peace, freed from her pains. That doesn’t make for good poltergeist material, and anyway, I don’t believe in spirits.

 

 I just don’t know how to explain the feeling of her presence that came along with her scent, the overwhelming press of the smell of her small, barrel-shaped, house-coated body, next to me, as I sat in her chair drinking a cup of hot tea.

Monday, June 2, 2014

Bradbury's 52-- the beginning.

 This week I began an adventure-- writing a short story (with a given prompt as a starting point) each week for 52 weeks in a row. It came about through Ray Bradbury's suggestion to new writers that no one is capable of writing 52 bad stories in a row-- so if you write one per week, you're bound to get something good eventually.

 Always a fan of writing challenges. I jumped on board pretty damn quick. Whether or not I've completed a challenge, I find each one I undertake useful, and fun-- NaNoWriMo may be painful fun, but still fun.

I'll likely post the stories here, with the prompts at the end.

Ready?  

Monday, February 10, 2014

FAWM-a-licious things to think about.

 It is once again February Album Writing Month, a challenge I have been unable to resist since the moment I came across a link to www.fawm.org, the January after my first NaNoWriMo-- or www.nanowrimo.org.

 As this is my blog, my own personal ongoing writing experiment, I though I'd jump in late and use this space to throw out ideas, titles for, and snippets of songs-in-progress.


 To see full songs, try this link: http://fawm.org/fawmers/heavyhedonist/ or this one:

http://fawm.org/fawmers/explodingmary/. I keep my various personalities there, on display, year round.

Now, for some possible titles--



Scatter Me (Wide)

 

Kittah Glittah

 

Wrestling Your Inner Shark

 

The Rosebush Dies

 

Sparkle Moles Doin' It

 

I Danced with Your Brother, too

 
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Haven't tried one of these yet.